Wednesday, May 4, 2016

I am shutting multijudysworld mysite down, but I am keeping my blog.
Personal reasons.....
Thanks all!!!

Tuesday, May 3, 2016

My Child

My oldest son is fighting a serious disease. It has been a very hard struggle for this mom.
I am working on trying to stay positive but at the same time keep my feet on the ground, roll up my sleeves and do what needs to be done.
You know, as a mom, it is so very hard to watch a child no matter who old they are suffer. It goes against all that is in you. You carry a child for nine months, give birth, fall in love with that child from the moment they are put in your arms. You care for them in sickness and health, try to teach them everything you can so they will hopefully survive and thrive on this planet and love them unconditionally.  You don't divorce a child when they hurt you, betray you, or for that matter for any reason. At least most moms are this way....
Joshua has always been a good son. Not perfect, but a good, loving son. I have never doubted he loved this mom and still does.
I know in my heart that this is his journey, his life. There are things he needs to learn and do and this illness is a part of that journey. It is also a part of my journey.
I was never given a book when I came home from the hospital with Josh as a baby. It was all trial and error, done on instinct. I don't have a book right now that is helping through this either. This has been a journey all trial and error and instinct.
I can read my bible and find comforting passages and other great books of faith, however, I am still a mom, on the front lines hurting for my child. 
Will I lose my son to this battle? I do not know, but I do know this. He belongs to the Creator....I have to trust in the plan He has for my son. I have to trust that Joshua's journey is in good hands and that The Creator is in control of that.
If I should lose Joshua in the flesh I have to trust the Creator has a plan for me to get through that as well.
Right now, this mom feels pain...

Sunday, May 1, 2016

Opinions and comments welcome

My friend DL wrote the following....
I would be interested in any opinions and comments....


 Have you ever considered that you might be under a mind control program called “Christianity”? (i.e. a religious matrix).    When  God - The Most High - physically tortures and kills his son on a cross, that would be considered satanic ritual abuse.  It is time for all who claim to be Christians, to re-evaluate the religion they are participating in, and let the Holy Spirit do the interpreting of scriptures.  They would discover a whole new paradigm, and a very different Jesus!(Galatians 1:11, 15-17).  The letter (a literal interpretation) kills, but the spirit gives life!

#1: Our Lord was crucified in a spiritual city, not on a piece of real estate in the Middle East. Revelation 11:8.  Paul describes the resurrection as spiritual, not physical.  Philippians 2:5; 3:10-16.

#2:  Abraham is an allegory; fable; not a real person in history.  Galatians 4:22&24. Apostle Paul.

i.e. Abraham = Brahma; Sarah =Saraswati

3.  Israel is symbolic of a spiritual transformation (See: Genesis 32:24-32 and Revelation 2:17); not a piece of real estate in the Middle East, or a state created in 1948 by the Rothschild’s. 

4.  Who is this mysterious man called Jesus Christ, really?  Apostle Paul’s (Jesus) Christ was a mystic Christ, and one that had to be birthed (unveiled) within each of us.  Galatians 1:12; 15&16; Galatians 4:19. This was the same Christ Paul found hidden within the O.T. scriptures, and Isaiah 26:17- 27:1 is an excellent example.  Christ formed within us (the bridal chamber) is the one who will slay the dragon/satan in the sea (Sea is a picture of us; humanity).   John also describes this same situation in Revelation 12.  The book of Revelation is not about past, present or future events, it is about Christ being birthed/formed in us, the temple of God and the Holy Spirit. Revelation 19:10.  Paul never met the man Jesus; his epistles were all written before the 4 gospels but at the same time as the Gospel of Thomas; he never spoke of a virgin birth or Jesus’ genealogies. Why not?   (The virgin birth and Jesus’ physical genealogies were probably created and added later to only two gospels.  Also, the pastoral epistles of 1 & 2 Timothy and Titus are rejected by notable scholars as having been written by Paul.  They contradict Paul’s Gnostic teachings.  He was never interested in building physical temples or churches.  1 Cor. 3:16&17; 6:19&20; Ephesians 2:21&22.  Jesus Christ’s second coming or appearing will never be on a piece of real estate in the Middle East!!   It’s time to wake up.  Ephesians 5:14.

Romans 12:1  I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a LIVING SACRIFICE, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service……….So why would God require his son to go through satanic ritual abuse (physical crucifixion)  and then his followers would be miraculously saved through vicariously living through someone who went through SRA?

We are told to take up our own cross, not someone else’s, and the

Monday, April 25, 2016

New day new post....

So much for the anger thing...takes too much energy and that is one thing I do not have enough of to spare.
I think too much, I am very sure of that!
Anyway I have come to the conclusion that even though I have written all through my story about satanic ritual abuse, I might need to revise it to just plain trauma based mind control. The reason is, because even though there was a lot of satanism involved, I am beginning to understand satanism was just another means to an end. I don't think that satanism was the main goal, it was just a function or part of the trauma base...
I believe there were many parts to the programing and the agenda was to control...
I am wondering if the programmers even really believed in their satanic crap. What I mean is sure they got off on it and sure they used it and did rituals etc. however, I am wondering if it was just another part of the programing and it was just a part of another days work, unfortunately some of them really enjoyed that part. SRA just brought out the worst in people who were already dead in spirit. Since they could not feel or give love in any way, SRA and the whole trauma cycle they used on others was the only way they could feel alive.
Now, I am not making an excuse for them at all! They are dead spirited people that I really can not compare to humans.
You know years ago I watched a movie called 'Dances with Wolves'. I remember the main tribe involved were talking about 'human beings'...they did not consider whites to be 'human beings' because whites in their eyes lacked human qualities and all the Indians saw was the bad side of  white soldiers and others killing animals for sport and having no respect for anything. When they took the time to know the one soldier they were shocked to discover he was compassionate and loyal and had respect for others and life around him, thus they deemed him a high honor of being a 'Human being'.
I think there is a lot of truth in that...
Although the Indians were not perfect and had their flaws they also had respect and care for others and the planet. They did not kill unless they felt a threat to their loved ones, etc....yes there was always exceptions...just like with the whites...and the soldier showed them that.
It is not always so cut and dry with humans....
Some are humans with flaws and some are not humans, in that they did not show or have one ounce of humanity or love.
So in my mind I see the perpetrators of my life as mostly non humans as I did not see any sign of humanity in them.
One things 'they' taught me was to never trust anyone or anything outside of the religion 'they' taught me. I was never to question other faiths, thoughts or even my own doubts. I was never suppose to step outside of the box I was put into. I was suppose to be a human robot controlled by non-human beings...
Guess that is what the last few months of my posts have been about, me climbing out of that box, kicking and screaming and being a human being....