Faith

You know I always thought I was a person with a fair amount of faith but I am beginning to understand how wrong I was.
I thought that if  I prayed for this or that and believed hard enough and that prayer was answered it was because I had faith. I used to believe that if I read and quoted scripture I could build my faith and use that as some kind of formula. I used to believe that faith was just a matter of believing.

Maybe there is an element of truth in all the above but the way I am seeing it these days is that most of what I thought about faith was wrong, just like most of the junk I was always taught.

I was also taught that somehow my faith was not as good as some peoples and that if my prayers were not answered like I thought they should be than it was because I had bad faith.

Lets face it a huge amount of my prayers are never answered or if they are the answer is usually no. But to be honest I do not think God is some kind of genie who is suppose to grant me my every wish. He is my Creator and Father and as my Creator and Father He loves me enough to supply my needs and watch over me, however; He may not do that in the way I see fit.

I am beginning to understand that faith can come in many forms and might even be different for different people. Like some of us have to have the walk on water kind of faith where even though it looks crazy to be going where you are going you have to have faith that no matter what it looks like you are where you need to be, doing what you need to do. But don't look down or around just keep your eyes on Him.. Some have the turn water into wine kind of faith or the tread on serpents kind of faith or the sit in prison with lions faith or even the get chucked into fire kind of faith. Faith is doing. Faith is trusting. Faith is action even if that action is being still. But if faith comes by hearing the words of God then I figure He is gonna put you in some really serious places according to what I have read.

You don't get to live in a nice cozy place eating Bonn-bons and watching soap operas. You don't always even get to have a home or a family. When you choose to take up the cross and follow Him you have to travel light. And you really do not even choose that because He chooses you and when He does you know in your heart you have no other choice but to chunk it all and follow.

I do not know how long I will be where I am now. It may be a few months or maybe longer. In any case it does not even matter because as I go along on this journey I realize it is not about where I am or what I have. It is about trust. It is about faith. It is about following Him to the end.