Morning....

I think I will just write what is on my heart again today...

I am pretty sure I upset a few and they feel as if I stepped on their toes a few posts ago when I questioned and basically came against the so-called 'tongues' the religious Church's are teaching about.
I knew when I sat down to write that post that it would not set well with some of you. I might have even offended and lost a few readers. All I have to say is....oh well.

The only reason I have this blog is to expose the truth and write what is on my heart as well as get people to think for themselves instead of hanging onto old programing and doctrines.

I am always ready to stand corrected and repent if I am leading anyone astray. But one thing I am beginning to understand is.... that when a person encourages others to think for themselves and question their religious beliefs... it does make them popular. People are in love with their religious beliefs...more so then they are with truth.
Ouch! I bet I lost a few more readers with that statement.

I have been feeling kind of weary this past week. Mostly because I kind of feel as if I am floundering out here on my own much of the time.
I hear the old programs in my head saying 'Judy you are crazy, you are a liar, no one gives a rats *** about your testimony or anything you write about because you are nuts.' I am sure a few of you often hear a lot of the same junk in your head as well.

I have to say life on this planet is a constant battle. The biggest battle being with my family. That is the battle that hurts the most. It is hard to be separated from the people you love the most in this world... but sometimes it is safer.... it is necessary.... and it is just part of the price when you follow the narrow road.

Now with saying all of that I also have to say the while I have lost relationships with a lot of my family I have also gained new relationships with some amazing people/believers who have become like a new family.

I spent a lot of years trudging on alone, especially when I was dealing with my healing and such. It seems to me that now that I am coming out on the other side of all the horrible pain of remembering and healing I am beginning to be a person who is better capable of having healthy relationships for the first time in my life. I am saying all of this to encourage all of you out there who are still in the beginning or even the middle of your healing.
It is sooooo worth it! I promise you it is! Hang in there and never give up. The Father has so much for you and He really will not leave you or forsake you.

It is easy for me now? Heck no! I will not lie and tell you junk just to make you feel good. I do not want anyone blindsided in thinking life is a picnic even after you get this far in your deliverance. I am still hit with whammies... depression...doubts etc... but I have noticed that all of these things do not last as long, are not as intense and I bounce back much quicker.

I know better then most how much the enemy hates me and wants to take me down and out. Am I scared about that? Amazingly no...and I can say that with all honesty. The more I speak out with the truth the safer I feel and the more I can feel the Fathers protection and hand on me.

The more I speak out the more I can feel the Father's love for His people flowing through me and that is the most amazing feeling in the world. I can not describe it. I am beginning to get a small glimpse into how people can die for the Lord and have a peace and a smile to the end. I small glimpse mind you.... I have a ways to go before I totally get it. But the small glimpses He had allowed me to feel and see of the Love He has for His people is so overwhelming I can not even begin to put into words. But I can say I am honored He has even allowed me to glimpse this at all.

Well I am out of here for today...you all have a wonderful weekend and a blessed new week....Seek the Lord with all your hearts and never let go.

Love & Prayers,
Judy

The LORD will grant you abundant prosperity--in the fruit of your womb,the young of your livestock and the crops of your ground--in the land hevswore to your forefathers to give you. The LORD will open the heavens,the storehouse of his bounty, to send rain on your land in season and to bless all the work of your hands. You will lend to many nations but will borrow from none. The LORD will make you the head, not the tail. If you pay attention to the commands of the LORD your God that I give you this day and carefully follow them, you will always be at the top, never at the bottom. Deuteronomy 28:11-13 NIV